another chance yah? well i'm glad you told me that SHIT coz FINALLY i was able to realize what a big SHIT you are. i'll never forget what you told me. well, sadly, i'm not LIKE you... buti nalang. well... my lasts words for you...

BURN IN HELL.

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ohwell.

... kapag sausage mcmuffin lang kinain mo buong araw. breakfast ko pa yun. shyet. ako'y nalipasan ng gutom... kaya matinding pananakit ng ulo, pagkahilo at pangangahol ng chan ang aking nadama nung hapon. nung di na nakayanan, natulog sa sofa nina dah habang siya'y nagluluto ng kanyang chicken liver. matagal tagal din ata ang tulog ko dahil pagkagising ko, lumipas na ang ulan at siya'y tapos na magluto at magsaing.

pinipilit niya akong kumakain pero sabi ko nalang busog ako. di ko masabing di ako kumakain ng liver dahil sasabihan nanaman akong maarte.

dinaan ko sa pag-inom ng tubig ang gutom ko. SOLVE.

pag-uwi, nanood nalang ako uli ng dvd na pinanood namin ni dah pero di ko lubusang naintindihan dahil sa pangunglit ni dah.
astig yung movie. SAW yung title. must see... mapapa-isip ka talaga... kasi astig yung killer, na hindi naman tlga killer kasi hindi siya pumapatay... gumagawa lang siya ng ways para patayin ng mga "victim" niya yung sarili nila. basta astig.
4 thumbs up... [kasama na yung thumb ko sa paa]

pagkatapos ng panonood ako'y naligo't nagsukat ng gown para sa debut ni iza. lahat maluwag. isa nalang ang natitirang tama ang fit. hanap nalang siguro bukas ng gown sa galle or kung saan man.

ayun. so parang nakalimutan kong kumain.
kaya ngayon hilo parin.

pero okay. 5 pounds lost in 3 days... salamat dakilang GTA na kumukuha ng aking attention at nakakalimutan kong gawin ang ibang "necessities" ng buhay. kahit maligo.
aaminin ko, isang araw nakalimutan kong maligo. buti nalang walang pasok at si dah lang ang aking kasama na hindi rin naligo.

sige. tulog na at kelangang magcharge para sa FRIDAY at SABADAY.

pansin ko lang... 1 whole week akong nasa starbux... kahit sunday. :)

aral kanina sa starbux with tina and ervin... haha! saya sobra... ang saya ko sa blockmates ko sobra... minsan sila na mismo nagpapagana saaking pumasok...

and i haven't done anything that would benefit my grade such as passing our last project in english and studying for the math finals.i played san andreas the whole weekend and managed to cover 75 out of a hundred graffiti tags around los santos, and 39 out of 50 photo opportunities in san fierro. i was about to finish the ambulance and taxi missions (level 12) when i accidentally hit the triangle button, making me exit the vehicle and end the mission. YES - in both missions. uulitin ko pa tuloy.

pero okay yung paglalaro... nakakalimutan ko nang kumain. pero ang weird, kasi habang naglalaro, nakakalimutan kong my blink... hanggang magtotally dry out na yung eyes ko. oh well.

okay... makapal na kung makapal, pero i'm still HOPING na ma-exempt ako sa finals. okay naman yung first 2 LTs ko, A chaka B+, yung last nga lang di ko na alam kung ano. sana lord, please.

onting araw nalang naman titiisin ko e...

must.resist.the.urge.to.play.grand theft auto...

***

nung friday, naisip lang namin ni moreen... we've got so much love to give...
pero hindi lang dapat binibigay yun ng basta basta...
pero siguro nga... kung alam kong TOTOO na this time around...

...ako na mismo ang magsasabing...

...hinding hindi ko siya pakakawalan.

...and i'll MEAN it...
this time around.

woe... ang tagal kong hindi nakapagOnline. pati studies ko mejo napabayaan dahil sayo, GTA: San Andreas
kaya ayaw ko nang umuwi eh, dahil SAYO lang din nabubuhos ang oras ko. shyet. ngayong finals pa...?

the truth: nakaugalian ko nang mag-aral sa starbux bago mag exam. now i can't study kung wala ako dun. shyet. butas bulsa ko nito. pero okay lang... mga 2 or 3 kape nalang ng starbux ang hindi ko pa natitikman na hindi whole bean coffee. okay toh.

i have 2 papers due tomorrow and d ko pa nasisimulan ang kahit isa. grabe. i owe it all to you, GTA. bakit ang ka ganyan!?

...okay. sabi sakin ng isang psychologist ang mga "maliliit" daw ay may "complex" [?] kaya karamihan daw ay mayayabang. hehe. kaya ba si japeth aguilar ay mahiyain? shux! nakita ko siya kanina bago ang ES class... woooosh! di naman pala siya... ...uhm... "physically deprived" eh! :) *kilig kilig*

okay. i ate so much yesterday... kaya babawiin ko yun today, I SWEAR. malapit na ang line up ng debuts... and i don't wanna look hammy habang nakaGown. fuck calories, fats and all those shit that cause bellies to bloat. the world is so unfair. gusto ko rin kumain... pero tataba ako. buti pa ibang tao, kahit di mashado kumakain hindi tumataba. :(

my hands feel dirty even though they're not. bakit kaya?

shux. juno has B.O. GAWD it stinks in here.

wooosh! okay, so i ate a smokey's taco dog [yung puno ng kung ano anong toppings] nung break namin, lechon kawali, pinakbet and rice for lunch and sisig topps [YES! with rice again!] sa royale place nung afternoon. wala na toh. talo ko na chan ni winnie the pooh.

moosegrill kme ni dah from 1pm hanggang 5pm... WOOOO! pinatugtog pa dun yung ever after! buti nakapag pigil ako although napakanta parin ako habang nagkkwento si dah [sorry! :D] anyway, sayang sanadali lang. may pasok pa kasi ako tomorrow eh... [see the SENSE of RESPONSIBILITY in me?!] talk-a-choo and kulitans. kakamiss si dah. :) thanks for sunduing and hatiding me danenuuuu! :-* happy birthday ulit sa mommy mo!

now i'm dizzy. i wanna sleep.

okay. we have to watch DARNA for an entire week. shyet talaga ang filipino. malakas na kutob kong mababagsak ko yung lecheng subject. next week nood kaming DUBAI. yey! miss ko na manood ng movie with my dear blockmates... war of the worlds pa ata yung last naming naWatch. gusto ko rin ng RED EYE! shux! movieeee trriiiip! :D

was with THIS GUY kanina. nung orsem na astigan ako sa kanya... you know... the looks and everything. pero nung nakasama ko kanina, hell, bading pala! kulit pa kasi he was really hyper... tapos nung paalis ako, he made this gesture na parang makikipag BESO-BESO... nung cheek to cheek na kami bigla ba namang hinarap yung face ko at pinaghahahawak yung mukha ko at MONTIK pa akong iKiss!?!?! woeee!!!
alngya tlga... pero cool lang. iisipin ko namang bading ka at siguro ay wala ka namang masamang intention nung gawin mo sakin yun...

okay. now i sleep.

but its the third time my eyes ached today because... uhm...
nakakalimutan kong magblink. GAWD. what's happening to me?!

tuesday tomorrow. wala naman mashadong gagawin... kaya eto, relax lang.
shet. d ako makasulat... sakit nanaman eyes ko...

...para makakain uli ng masarap na sisig topps. hindi ko pa inubos lahat para lang may maTake home...
tapos kakainin lang ng maid... :( ohwell. atleast hindi na'ko napakain ng rice.

sunday nanaman. monday na tomorrow. ayoko pang pumasok. i want to sleep pa kahit 12 hours na tulog ko kanina...

***

may mga tao talagang gagawin lahat para sa'yo... kahit minsan mo na silang sinaktan.
...thanks dah...*

...and wow! TAMBAK ang ATENEO!

ohwel. pasukan nanaman bukas.

***

okay. now that i've decided to cut my english class [under the influence of mr. enrico "eric" dee,jr.], i don't feel like doing any of my homeworks anymore. shit this crappy week. i need some DAYS off... or kahit makita ko manlang siya... kahit bukas manlang.*

*okay. i don't wanna expect anymore. not even from him.

please, heart... stop beating...
...stop beating FOR HIM.

okay, pinag-iisipan ko pa kung ippost ko pic niya dito sa journal ko. baka makita ng friends niya... baka makita nya.
GAWD. that would suck bigtime.

ipost ko kaya?

saka na siguro... pag di ko na siya gusto. ohwell. para akong timang.
that reminds me, nagkwekwentuhan kanina si orville and ervin about this guy named "tim ang".
poor boy.

haaaaynako. ayoko na mag English please? thanks eric [again] for not making sulat my cuts. siguro naka 8 cuts na ako, 3 palang nasusulat mo. thanks so much. pag patuloy mo lang yan at isusulat ko sa documentation natin sa E.S. na may ginawa ka kahit minsan wala at puro chicks ang pinag-uusapan niyo ni alby. yan ang teamwork!

debut na ni val sa saturday! happy birthday val! reregaluhan kita ng red horse dahil 18 ka na! joke lang. baka masamain. joke lang yun. peace! :)

friday na... yes! friday na... YES!!!

to be NUMB...

* * *

UAAP bukas! and YES! i'll be watching the game! thanks orville for the P50.00 ticket! you're the best! :D
hehe, actually, first time kong manood ng UAAP live buong buhay ko. [loser ba ng dating?]

anyway... english lang ang class ko today. yey! kaya here i am, enjoying my free wi-fi benefit. okay ang connection! faster than dial-up... pero mas mabagal compared sa service sa states. ohwell. lulubusin ko nalang ang free benefits para masulit ang tuition na halos gapangin na ng aking magulang.

went to eric's place last night. killer yung bahay nila. MTV Crib ng pinas! and yung BMW niya... siya lang makikita mong may ganun sa dito. astig astig. we did our ES project presentation. pero hindi pa siya tapos. i'll be doing the effects pa later.
nagyayaya rin si ervin sa meatshop ngayon... pero mukhang d ako makakapunta. ohwell.

cge... adios for now.

habang umiiral ang pagkaStalker ko at tinitignan ang pic niya sa friendster, biglang may dumating na friend request from him!

wooooooooooooooeee!!!

I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaah!

habang nagddrive sa car ni papa papuntang party ni dahrelou...

papa: o, what time mo balak magpasundo?
baxi: *takot* 11:30? okay lang ba yun?
papa: bakit naman 11:30!?!
baxi: ... ... ...
papa: anong oras ba matatapos yun?
baxi: hanggang may tao siguro
papa: sige, sunduin nalang kita ng mga 1am.

haha! i love you papa! :D

saya yesterday! sobrang baet ni papa... hinatid ako sa house nina dahrel ng 8pm... tapos nung pagpunta niya around 1am para sunduin ako, naki-inom muna siya hanggang sa napunta na sa kwentuhan... umuwi na kami mga 3:30am...

shet! nakakamiss! nakasama ko ulit si carla and betong... una parang hindi man lang nagBanggitan na namiss namin isa't isa... pero bago sila umalis nagHug Hug pa and everything dramatic. shet... nakakamiss talaga. buong summer ni isang beses hindi kami lumabas o nag kita. ayun, at least okay na... shet. miss na kita carla mae!!! :D

si eric ang kulit pala kung basag. haha... may pakindat-kindat pang nalalaman. tapos nung pauwi na siya, nagPayong siya kahit hindi umuulan... yung pagHawak pa niya, hawak niya yung pinakaDulo ng handle tapos nakaStretch upward yung kamay niya... parang tatangayin ng hangin... haha... kulit! bentang benta sakin...

si dahrelou pa naOver drink! haha... suka pa 4 times tapos nahiya siya dahil nandun ako... okay lang naman yun nunui eh... basta wag mo lang ako sukahan. JOKE! kahit sukahan mo pa ko... okay lang. papahid ko lang sayo. ayan... atleast quits na tayo... once mo ako nakita nagSuka, five times kita nakita!

nabni nanau si nenika?

baet pa ng dad, mom and mga kapatid ni dah! shit sobra... the best! todo... thanks naninau...

happy birthday ulit!!!

anyway... reality check:

MONDAY:

english10:
-- final paper: individual composition
-- final paper: group composition

TUESDAY:

math11:
-- longtest # 3

WEDNESDAY

environmental science10:
-- investigatory project presentation
-- investigatory project final paper

...sheex. good luck to me. wala pa yung composition ko for monday and hindi pa ko nag-aaral sa math... yun pa naman kelangan isang buong linggo na pag-aaral. my GOD.
yung ES project na yan 50% ng final grade. wala pa ring nagagawa and hindi pa napapag-usapan. shux.

...seryoso na. aral na toh...

[ 22:02 ]

i decided not to do my goddamn english paper. now i feel a whole lot better. parang... natanggalan ng in grown sa paa. o diba, sarap?

sabi nila i'm not the CHICK kind of girl. sana naman hindi yun dahil para akong ... GUY.

GREGORY GUY?

nyack... corny.

i cut english class kanina... meaning, i only had one class... which was ES. anyway, ate lunch with enrique sa gateway... then went with moreen sa meatshop... ENJOY!
shit...

ang hirap...

FINALLY!

nakapagRegister na ako sa WiFi ekek dito sa campus kaya pwede na akong magSurf anytime given na may mahagilap na signal ang aking beloved laftaf. horay for technology! :)

busog nanaman ako sa dami ng gagawin. confirmed na ang longtest sa thursday. mahaba ang coverage and nakakaBadTrip dahil hindi ako bumili ng book dahil sa kakapalan nito. well, since longtest na, pinaXerox ko nalang ang book ni val mula page 3 hanggang 106. hayop. makapal ang bitbit ko. ohwell. that reminds me... babalikan ko na nga pala yung pinaXerox ko...

...later.

all went well today. our supposed ES quiz was postponed! yey! sir rene gave back LT # 2 and our project proposals... we got an A! yey! nako, hindi pala nasayang yung pag-Cut ko ng isang intac class. :)

nakasama ko siya kanina!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! :D

anyway... have lots of work load to do... study muna ulit. adios!

[ 20:06 ]

everyone's going to the gym.

...wait. that doesn't qualify. oh well. screw english. although i'm actually beginning to enjoy that dreaded subject.

anyway, almost every girl i know is on a diet. well, hanggang hindi pa ako umaakyat sa 118 lbs, i better watch my weight narin and start eating good food. as in yung tipong hindi fish balls, donuts, jolly spaghetti, mc flurry, auntie anne's pretzel or beer. aldus told me that one donut was equivalent to 25 rounds of jogging sa moro. yes, he actually told me that while i was eating a goddamn donut. shit. i don't want to run. my legs are gonna pop and become chunky again. well, not that they're in their normal state na...

... pause...
... waaaaah!!!
...nag missed call siya sakin!!!! *ngiti hanggang tenga* :D :D :D

...pero shocking, biglang nagdagsaan ang mga guys sa moro at puro bicepts, tricepts, bench press nalang ang naririnig ko sa mga lalake kong blockmates. ano meron?

okay. seryoso na.

TUESDAY:
--Fil11: presentation and report on traditional sculptures

WEDNESDAY:
--En10: final paper - composition : dinner-proposal shit , presentation of outline
--ES12/10: 2 page reaction paper , final lab report

THURSDAY
--Fil11: Long test

FRIDAY:
--En10: final paper - composition : college life in the ateneo
--ES12: quiz on montreal protocol, kyoto protocol, ozone depletion, CFCs, and soil.

okay... i pity myself. next week math longtest and ES project presentation naman. haaaynako nga naman oo.

***

et tu, ynga?

lahat na nga ng tao ay nagddiet. huhuhu. ayoko pa magdiet, masarap kumain.. huhuhu :(
pero sige, para sa aking ikabubuti at sa ikabubuti ng aking bulsa, i shall lessen my food intake simula bukas.

haaaay, buhay.

its sunday once again. haaay. nakakapagod na minsan, mashadong obligated sa studies. pero come to think of it, may choice naman ako eh. its just a matter of responsibility and discipline. siguro ngayon wala pang mapupuntahan 'tong mga pinaggagagawa ko... pero soon...
yes...
... soon.

ibang tao ay sajang SNOB nga naman. well, if that's how you like things... have it your way.
hindi ako yung tipong nanghahabol. i just do hope you TWO are happy and hope that you're no longer screaming your guts out over some exaggerated problem that usually arises from your screwed up mentality.
well those are my final words for you. :) take care and good bye.

we'll be going to gerry's in a few minutes... like about 10 mins. o god please help me STOP drinking. kahit 1 month lang.
baliwala yung ilang araw kong pagtitiis na walang pagkain eh... beer belly parin ako. :(
shyet!!!

okay. i should go and get prepared na and try to conceal this gruesome belly of mine.

we had our Environmental Science field trip today, and HELL was it great!

yes, yes. we hiked for hours in la mesa dam's muddy forest... you should've seen how my newly washed white shoes transformed into shit-brown combat boots...
nevertheless, it was fun! ... forked roads... mud... rain... mud... stranded in a santol store... mud.. anne sneaking into a tiny aircon bus window... swimming! well, it was the best. :)

unfortunately, i'm not in the mood to write... kaya... pix nalang!

well it SUX and i MEAN it.

i just read ingga's journal. well ingga, you're not alone. ako rin e, 34 naging 36. :D haha. [pansin mo may common ratio yung growth?] a lot of people noticed the sudden CHANGE din. di ko alam kung magiging masaya ba ako or flattered or what, pero it did... uhm... DEVELOP. sana height ko rin. kahit half an inch lang, please?

next week's gonna be tight kaya i'm savoring the moments of freedom na. we'll be having our Filipino and ES long test on the 8th and 9th, then the following week sa math naman. kelangan pang gawin yung investigatory project and presentation shit na yan. pressure pa kasi kelangan ko iMaintain yung 2.85 na QPI ko or else i'll be in deep shit.
WHATTA LIFE.
di bale, after nun, bawian na. sabi nga nila, "study HARD, party HARDER." yan ang tinatawag na NATURAL BALANCE. hehehe :D